of clouds in relationships

how do you go from total euphoria to an absolute down? how does the turn of events slip from your control and impregnate disaster? when do we ask ourselves how have things gotten so wrong?

relationships are a fact of life. everyday, we encounter opportunities to begin lasting connection with other people, but it is up to us to either harbour, or totally ignore, it. for us who choose to cultivate what little seed of a budding relationship that goes our way, a responsibility is inevitably set. it becomes our duties to nurture it the way a mother does her young. it becomes our rule to feed the fire that we chose.

this scenario however presents two very distinctive effects. one is that we bask in the glorious state of love where not even the stars can dare hinder what each of us feel. the other is when we lose that love and fall in the abyss of common strangers; what once was is now forgotten and becomes a thing of the past.

for many of us, we encounter and undergo these two effects many times in our lives. it sometimes becomes a cycle where we try to recreate the euphoric state of love but somehow always finding the emptying darkness of falling out of love instead. to me, this has always been the million dollar question. how do you go from total euphoria to an absolute down? how does the turn of events slip from your control and impregnate disaster? when do we ask ourselves how have things gotten so wrong?

well, i am in that phase right now. where did i go wrong? i mean, i'm not ending my relationship or anything serious like that, but i am actually confused as to how a simple fight can balloon into an arena of sad feelings. i cant think right now, i cant act right now. in fact, i dont think i can perform in any of the tasks that i am yet to do. a cloud of sadness has fallen over me and i am desperate to find the light of clear thinking that'll pierce this cloud. i hope it comes. soon.