choosing intelligently

for the past two weeks, i've been ranting about still not having a law firm to take me up as their intern. it really annoyed me to no end that of the ten firms i've submitted my resume to, only one called up for an interview. talk about a bummer. anyway, just two weeks ago, i found out that of the ten firms, five will not take in interns this year and four had already filled up their slots way before i submitted my resume. thus, securing my confidence with regards to my credentials. however, one can assume that such relief is short-lived. the one that called me up eventually said no because some other law student has taken my place. that sucks. big time. so i was off again on the streets submitting my resume to other law firms whose slots have not been filled up yet. thank goodness one firm immediately set me up for an interview. at first i thougth it was just a small one which is in dire need of extra help around the office. but lo and behold, it was one of the biggest, and highly coveted, law firms in makati. so one can only imagine the surprise in my face when i entered their posh office, me, just expecting a small one. tsk tsk... the interview went well. but the results won't be in 'til next week. and i can't rely on one law firm only. thus, today, i went on again distributing my highly priced resume. with only a red shirt and jeans hugging my body, i went to salcedo village as well as to legazpi village to try my luck with the law firms located therein. five resumes and 1000 km after, i reached bernas law office. this was already about 6 in the evening and i was tired as hell from all those walking (still no car, haay). upon submitting my resume, the receptionist told me to wait for a while; i thought it was merely to confirm that a slot is still open. but no, i was totally dumbstruck when she ushered me in and asked me to wait for Atty Bernas for my interview. and there was i, in red shirt, blue jeans and a rubber shoes, waiting to be interviewed by a lawywer. in my mind, i've repeated about a hundred times my excuse for not being properly attired for the meeting. oh well. he seemed not pleased at all. he told me i should be ready all the time. of course i couldn't tell him that i couldn't wear leather shoes today because i don't have a car and i use my God-given feet to get me there. oh well. then he told me he's taking me in. he needs some stuff about civil procedure done. and just like that, during that very awkward moment, he started discussing what he wants and what i have to do all summer. he asked for standards for the right to appeal. ohmigosh. civpro. tsk tsk. not my strenght, at least not during recitation. then something happened. something i said, i think, impressed him. he was listing certiorari among my assignments when i suddenly asked, in my very engaging and interested tone, if the certiorari he refers to is under rule 45 or 65. he smiled. for a second, at least. i think he was impressed that i was able to recall exact rule numbers! hehe, i have tranquil to thank for that! hehe.. i guess he taught us pretty well...
anyway, my dilemma arose from this. just after my interview, another law firm called me up for another interview. i guess it's easy to say no to that. but what if the big law firm calls me up? i don't think i have the strength to say no. i really like it there. but i have already given my word to Atty Bernas. tsk tsk. if the situation arises (i hope it won't), how can i break off my word? grrr... i hate this. i don't like the timing of things. not one bit. how can i chose intelligently if everything depends on other people's whims? hay, oh well.