How long ago was it when all i can blog about was how sad i was? And how long since then did i begin writing how good my life turned out to be? I realized then that it's a cycle i've been on all my life, and that all i can do is to face every challenge head on and brace myself for all the consequences it brings. After all, life is but a series of downs and ups, to and from, sadness and happiness, right?

Monday, August 28, 2006

missing anonymity

i started blogging ages ago. back then, i was careful not to identify myself in any of my entries. this, i suppose, afforded me a wide latitute for saying what i want, when i want it.

that, however, doesn't happen anymore.

and it makes me sad. no longer can i just lay bare myself. i fear people around me may misconstrue my words for other notions equally capable of other associations. for that fear, i feel suffocated. smothered even.

it seems that life is pouring out of me and there is nothing i can do to put a stop to it. i'm drained. emptied. i need a plug to stifle this leak to retain who i am.

lest i miss myself, and drown in anonymity.

posted by jeland at 8:13 PM